I'd like to think that this is what happens in my house on a daily basis, but I'd be fooling not only myself but anyone who reads this! I am exhausted and in much need of relief! I'm just hoping I don't lose my patience with my kids before Matt comes home. Matt has been gone to a conference in Park City, UT since Tuesday and I am SO ready for him to come home. He went for a conference, but has also been able to ski everyday for almost the entire day (one of those conferences with meetings in the morning and then the evening so they can ski). Throughout the week, I've had several thoughts about all this:
1. We weren't able to afford a ski trip this year, so I'm happy that Matt was able to go (courtesy of the hospital).
2. We have always wanted to ski in Utah, and now Matt gets to.
3. Matt works so hard and deserves a nice break away from the hospital to learn and play.
and then the thoughts take a bit of a different direction:
4. When does my job afford me perks like this?
5. Where is my ski trip? When do I get to ski in Utah?
6. Why is it that mothers seem to never really get much of a break? And if we do, it seems like the amount of work it takes to prepare for it and the work we come home to may not be worth the payoff!
I hesitated putting all this on the blog as I'd like for everyone to think that I am such a great wife and mother that I never think these things, but who would I be kidding? Whether we say it or not, don't we all think these things? Isn't it human nature to do so? And obviously none of this negates the fact that I am very happy for Matt and I'm glad he's having so much fun skiing and eating out and socializing with adults while I am at home with 2 little ones changing diapers, doing laundry, cleaning, playing games, etc. You get the picture!
I suppose I shouldn't complain too much as I am going with him to a conference in CA in a few weeks without the kids, but these are my thoughts at the present moment. Yes, life is not fair and there are many things that Matt has to deal with in his job that I don't, but right now thinking of those things doesn't seem to provide much comfort. I'm just praying that I'll make it until Sunday without losing my mind!
3 comments:
I'm sure I'd be feeling the same way if that were Ryan gone! Sometimes our jobs aren't as "perk" filled as our husbands, however I think our perks come later when we see our children leading leading lives that glorify God - all of which you already know, but sometimes it helps to be reminded amidst the chaos of full time mothering :) ...also I LOVE your new blog design :) Miss ya - Jen
I am pretty sure you are the best mother/wife around so you have nothing to worry about. I like to hear a little complaint now and again - it makes me feel good. :)
I completely agree with the above comments, you are a great mother and I don't know how you do it with two (I suppose I'll find out really soon)! I feel the same way when Ty is gone to work for only a day sometimes, so you're definitely not alone!!
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